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I have magical powers!

14 Sep

By that I do not just mean the ability to make huge amounts of cheese disappear. ^^

We were sitting in the car on our way back from Bruges last Sunday. My friend Stephanie and I had spent a weekend away from everything, to catch up, look at old houses, and eat everything Belgium has to offer (namely waffles, fries, chocolate, and beer). Anyway, we had seen all we wanted to see, eaten all we wanted to eat, and walked more kilometers than any reasonable person would plan to, and the duck was sitting on the dashboard looking out at the highway.

Me, “By the way, I have magical powers.”

Her, “You don’t say.”

Me, “Do you remember that tiny hut at the edge of the woods, around the corner from our flat? The one I had used as a safe place for that stupid teenager in my last book?”

Her, “What about it?”

Me, “They demolished it.”

Riverton, in the real world (and in the original German novels) is my current hometown Bonn. And I frequently use places one can walk past in real life, with as much detail as I remember while writing. So far:

  • the bank mentioned in book one has been destroyed and replaced with a new building;
  • the conference center has been turned into a hotel;
  • the former embassy Helena is sitting on at the beginning of book one has been turned into luxury apartments;
  • the “Institute of Cryptozoology” has been sold and renovated;
  • the townhall is under critical assessment due to supposedly unstable structures, either to be demolished or renovated;
  • the place where the first dead body is presented in book four has been turned into a construction site for apartments;
  • the hut from book five has been demolished.

Basically I renovate the town by writing about certain buildings. It is kind of cool, right? However, I am havong doubts about book seven – it was supposed to take place in and around the castle in Stephanie’s hometown, where my family used to live. I mean, that castle has been around for about a thousand years. What could a single fantasy writer do about it? We may find out.

And now – which building would you write new?


On the power of words

4 Aug

Words have power. That’s why we have to use them wisely. I’m a translator, an author, and a smart-ass, so I know what I am talking about.

Let me give you an example:

Two years ago, when I was weighing rougly 200 pounds, at some point I decided that “fat” would by MY word. I started using it to describe myself in conversation with friends or store clerks when I went out shopping. Sentences such as, “Why don’t you have anything for fat people?”, became normal. And some people felt hugely uncomfortable – “No, you can’t say that! Why would you be so mean to yourself?” Others were disappointed because “fat” did not work as an insult anymore. And my other fat friends kind of just went along with it. Some thought it was cool. Some started doing it themselves.
Now that I have lost weight (by exercise in combination with caloric restriction, the old-fashioned way) and am in the range of “normal” or healthy weight, I have noticed a difference in reactions. And I have realized that the empowering use of “fat” is not a thing for me anymore. For a few weeks, when I have said “fat” (I still have a tummy and thighs, after all), people tended to be shocked or offended. Obviously they thought I was mocking different people, because to the public eye I am now the traditional white, non-fat woman.
So I have decided to un-train myself from saying “fat” when talking about my body, for words have meaning outside of what we intend to say – communication is a two-way street with loops and dead end roads and super highways and funny loopings where you would not expect them.
I’ll find a new revolutionary self-empowerment word. “Old”, maybe. Or, “hairy”.^^

Anyway, this was not supposed to be a bragging post – that will come around mid-September, when I will hopefully complete my first obstacle race. I’ll have plenty to brag about then!!!

No, instead I was going to say, words do have power, and you must choose them wisely, and you can gain power through your words. Witches know that, or they learn it quickly when wording their first spells (like when, as a young woman, I witched for “someone to love me” and ended up with two stalkers – what can I say? Sometimes I’m dumb. ^^) And this is important in everyday conversations as well. It’s not for nothing that being politically correct has become such a huge issue. Okay, sometimes they are overdoing it, but most of the time people who dismiss “this stupid PC talk” are basically saying, “I don’t want to worry about how the things I say affect others, for my communication is just me spewing words at the world, and no one else matters.”

And in the end, this is why songs and stories and poems hold magic, and why we should listen before we talk, and why being fat or thin or wrinkled or hairy is something you should own – instead of giving your power away.

To hex or not to hex, that is the question

19 Jun

No, not really.

Of course you know where I am coming from.

A few days ago, several hundred witches joint forces to hex convicted rapist Brock Turner because he got off too easy in about everyone’s opinion.

To this, famous witch Raymond Buckland reacted by saying that witches do not hex people.

To this I have two opinions – because nothing is ever straight and simple with me, sorry folks! ^^

First of all, I think that witches can and do and occasionally even should hex, and that no one has the right to tell them otherwise (or state that hexing makes you less of a witch) – not even Raymond Buckland. If you say you want to practice witchcraft with only light and love, that is your right, and no one should look down on you. If, however, you feel that every now and then someone needs a hug with a magical chair in the face, you’re just as much a witch as every fluffy bunny I have ever seen.

Magic does not care what you use it for.

Magic is neither “good” nor “bad”, and I highly doubt that our deities think in the same narrow categories as we do.

Of course everything comes with a price, so if you really want to hex someone, be sure you are willing to bear the consequences. A while ago I hexed the husband of a colleague because he was abusing her. And if at some point in history my soul will be devoured by a giant pink divine hippo because of this hex, I am more than willing to pay this price. Does this make me less of a witch? Definitely not. Does it make me less of a good person? Maybe – I haven’t made up my mind yet whether “being good” is really such a good thing for mankind.

A former colleague has been asking me about spells and hexes for the last few weeks to get back at her lover. Do I condone her actions? Not necessarily. Have I answered her questions? Yes. But … why, you ask? Because I want her to not follow some rambling weirdo magicion on the internet who sells her expensive ground up dustbunnies as hexing powder. I want her to know what she is getting herself into, and if she feels willing to pay the price, I want her to have the right tools. (Again, if at some point in history my soul will be devoured by a giant pink divine hippo because of this, I am fine with it.)

Now on to the second part of the problem.

I do not think it right to form mobs, magical or mundane, and go after people who have committed any kind of crime. This has nothing to do with the hexing problem – I am just nor comfortable with mob activities. I think the “sentence” was more of a joke. I think anyone who would assault and rape a drunk person (or any person at all) deserves to be rolled down a hill in a casket with spikes on the inside, fairy-tale-style. But we as a society should not take justice into our own hands. We do not lynch people, we do not burn at the stake. And this is why we should not come together to hex a single person, not even someone as deserving as Brock Turner.

The aftermath of a crime like this should be about supporting the victim. Send her energy, help her heal – instead of shining even more light on the scumbag who assaulted her. If after a terrible crime like this your attention is on the attacker, while the victim is left alone to deal with the results as best as she can, you may just be part of the problem.

And, again – we as a society should not lynch.

Altar experiments

27 Jun


I had told you about how it seems I never spend any time at my altar, right? And how sabbath dates are always packed with mundane stuff?

Working on fixing that right now.

On Litha, a friend whom I had not seen in months dropped by in town, and of course I had to meet her. I really wanted to celebrate the beginning of summer, but who says there has to be ritual? So instead we got together, invited yet another friend and had dinner together, sitting in front of a café in town. The other friend and I later went in search for cocktails (on which occasion I discovered she has magic breasts ^^ ).

But. The altar. Sigh. I only ever spent time in my room if I have to stash something away or if I have to need the computer.

So now the altar is sitting on my nightstand.



It only holds the basics…


… the heart-shaped stone with the praying/meditating couple…


… a candle, my bonsai, the wooden cat that came to us when Ronja was in surgery and the famous Briar painting of maiden-mother-crone…


… and a tin hare Richard gave me when we went to a medieval fair recently. ^^

In the first picture you can also see an offering bowl with a few fading roses from the bushes in front of our home.

Now, every night when I go to bed, and sometimes in the morning, I light the candle for a few moments. Sometimes I meditate, sometimes I pray, and sometimes I just enjoy the light. (Which sometimes leads to romance. *ahem*)

Who says you cna’t have a busy witchy life?

PBP: Black Magic

25 Jan

What is “black magic”? Is there even such a thing?
How do you feel about using it?


Much controversy about this, it seems. And it is this simple in the end: There is no such thing as “black magic”. Just as there is not “good” or “bad” intelligence. Or “good/bad” weapons. Magic is a kind of energy. What you use it for may be bad or good, but that is totally up to you. Some people like to say, “If your spell harms someone else, it is black magic.” But think about it – if you do a job spell and get a job, that is good – for you. But it may be bad for other people who applied for the same job. Now, “black” or “white” magic?

I think many people use this whole “black/white” concept in order to avoid taking responsibility for the at times unexpected outcome of their dabbling.